There is NOTHING that makes you feel better than love.
True, honest, humble, faithful love.
I never believed in it. My parents divorced when I was 6 years old and as soon as I was old enough to understand it, I kind of lost my respect for marriage. It was just not a fairytale to me like it was to other girls.
Why would two people believe in their hearts - and make vows in front of all of their family and their friends in their church - that they are in love with each other and will be partners through life together - suddenly take it back? What is the point of marriage to someone if it is not a real promise, only a temporary one? As an adolescent, those were my thoughts. I was taught by my mother to be very responsible and independent and with that I still held my skepticism for true love. Both parents re-married - and... divorced again. I saw them both go through tremendous pain and suffering and loss. My last grain of hope for having faith in love went flying out the window. Marriage started to scare me.
My senior year of high school was when I met Evan. He was sooo cuuuuteee and we both reeealllyy liked each other. We started dating, but in my head I was thinking, we'll break up when I leave for college. But when it came time, we had grown so close, so we tried to make it work long distance (without cell phones or cars!!). It worked. Four years through college, three months of me living in Pennsylvania, three months of me living in New York City, and a month of me living in Milan. I got a job and we moved to Columbus together. People always asked us (at least once a week) "when are you guys gonna get engaged?" and "are you guys married yet?!". I'd answer, annoyed, "I donno" and "No". It's not about the wedding, the dress (well maybe a little about the dress!), the flowers, or the DJ - it's about the LOVE and our PROMISE TO EACH OTHER.
We are engaged now. We haven't yet started planning one thing - except getting our rings made. I'm not hurrying. Why? I did still have that old skeptic in me about love - even though I love Evan with all of my hear and soul. I don't want marriage to ruin us. I know it won't - because - it's US. I know that love will win and we'll fight against those odds and we will not let petty things take us down.
I DO believe in real, true, honest, long lasting love. I'm taking that skeptic within me and turning that attitude into something more of a warrior attitude. Fight FOR love and not against it.
Evan and I are really close friends with a couple that I met in college. Sarah and Charlie. They've been together as long as Evan and I have, and they've also been though lots of long distance turbulence. Last weekend - they got engaged!! Then, this week, I got something special in the mail.
Sarah & Charlie - I'm so happy that you two are going to spend the rest of your lives together and I cannot wait to be a part of that commitment!
I also promise to love you both forever :D.
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